I’ve been quiet, though life has gotten a little louder. Great deep shifts that will not be written about on the open Web. At least not any time soon.
I have been being reminded over and over that a key part of what I have to do is reconcile the part of me that loves systematizing, researching, logically analyzing, and explaining with the part of me that experiences unexplainable things and is comfortable shifting in and out of altered (integrative?) states of consciousness.
I would have to look it up in Angeles Arrien’s book on tarot again, but I’m pretty sure my life card is the Chariot…
The chariot is one of the most complex cards to define. On its most basic level, it’s about getting what you want. It implies war, a struggle, and an eventual, hard-won victory over enemies, obstacles, nature, the uncertainties inside you. But there is a great deal more to it. The charioteer wears emblems of the sun, yet the sign behind this card is Cancer, the moon. The chariot is all about motion, and yet it is often shown as stationary.
What does this all mean? It means a union of opposites, like the black and white steeds. They pull in different directions, but must be (and can be!) made to go together in one direction. That is perhaps the most important message of the Chariot. Separate the driver form the chariot, the chariot from the horses, the horses from each other and from the driver, and nothing gets done. They all do their own thing. Put them all together, with the same goal in mind, and there will be no stopping them.
And so the Great Work continues.
Soul enlarging things of late:
- Ecstatic dance, practiced somewhere other than my house
- Finding myself invited to join a community garden, and spending hours with my hands in the dirt
- I’m getting used to riding my bike and sometimes it is actually fun instead of torture
- Making important decisions about my time and effort and where it should be directed
- Returning to LJ, a relief from Facebook’s vapid-fire updating.
And so it goes.